"I guess it’s part of life you know. Being young, naive.. it’s funny though. We spend our wholeeee child hood crushing on someone, and not even looking for someone to be with. I guess it’s natural though.. sort of like.. an instinct. At a young age we look for companionship.. and I dunno about you, but when I was with her it felt right. And no we weren’t together, but I knew she was the one. Can you be in love with someone that you’re not in a relationship with? To be honest..I dunno. But then that feeling that she gave me.. it was indescribable. Anyways.. long story short, I finally talked to her and I made her my girl ^.^.. nothing came between us.. Late night phone calls.. no sleep.. even dropping grades. Gifts, pictures, letters.. texts… memories. It’s funny, cuz we would joke around about how many kids we’d have.. or even getting married. But I believed with all my heart, she’d be the one that.. I’d be with forever. Then the fights started happening.. little by little.. we began to fade. Then it just happened. I didn’t just lose my girlfriend.. I lost my bestfriend. I don’t know what hurts more, that we never speak.. or when we speak it’s not the same. I guess I knew the risk of falling for your friend.. but you never think that you’re gonna break up with them. You always think it’s gonna be you and her.. him and you. Sometimes I just wanna tell you I miss you, I wanna hug you.. or even have a conversation. Or.. see how your doing. Do you still think of me? Do you remember our first kiss..?… Do you remember how you were looking at me with those reckless eyes, and you told me you loved me for the first time. Cuz I remember yours.. how could I forget. And I just wanna let you know, I still think about you from time to time. I guess what I’m saying is that.. you’ll never forget.. your first love."
Jayfluent (via desisabares)